Entitled with: no title

I find consolation in coffee’s bitterness, and the bitterer it is, the more it heals.

Because no chocolate is sweet enough to heal, and pain to be healed requires more pain

And who said pain is painful? Pain is a relief of the soul if our bodies have any.

I find gratitude in struggles; they assure you’re still alive and human.

Because I doubted my existence in a world that rebutted my being

A world of materials that despised my humanity

I find the utmost use of spoken words in silence
but darkness has the loudest silence

And the world was meant to be dark and silent toward injustice

I find solace in unconsciousness

Because it’s the sole brain drug
And you’re not supposed to be aware of your surroundings

I find utter pointlessness the purpose of life,
because I kept trying to figure out the reason of my existence

And I came up with nothing

I find solitude each time a new baby is born

Though they make the world more crowded
crowded with immorality and bias

I find the core of everything in nothingness,
because the absolute is relative

And truth is not defined


And all what we are capable of is… whining

Or write words of sorrow

Or turn our profile pictures into black
though neither colors nor words can express sorrow.

Dear visitor, you won't pass until we see u naked. Sincerely, the US airport security.

Just few days ago I discovered that I went through a full body scanner in the airports about 4 times. When I was told about these new x-ray scanners in the US airports i stupidly thought they were going to show nothing but bones, but when I came back home I found out that they create a full-body image showing the natural curves and hiding the person’s face. They told us if you don’t like it you can opt for a pat-down, and deal with a woman who’s going to touch every single part in your body in a very personally humiliating way. I know the fact that they deal with millions daily and all of them are expected to be terrorists of course and that I should be more open minded and accept the fact that my body is humiliated for my own security, you know what? Fuck security; fuck whoever thinks that we should be ready to give up anything for our own security. And why weren’t we told about the matter in the airport? Why didn’t they ask for our permission and whether we want our privacy violated in that way or not?

Beside all of that you have to deal with their stupid questions like who packed your luggage, Where? And do you have any weapons of mass destruction or liquids? What am I expected to say? That yes Bin laden packed my luggage and I do have a nuclear bomb in my pocket? See how honest am i? Arrest me now smartass.

And whether you’ll pick the scanner or the pat down, you have to take off your shoes, jackets, belts, accessories in order to pass, I saw a man getting all of his clothes off just to pass safely, It’s damn funny isn’t it? 

I wonder why a nation that keeps calling for freedom and respect of privacy is very good at doing nth of that when it comes to foreigners? if only US citizens are allowed to travel, will they go through full security check and be humiliated that way?

There’s definitely sth wrong with my society

How does it feel like to be living in a napping society that sleep-walks? Or to be living with drunk people 24/7?  

I’m certainly drunk as well to think of writing such a piece of shit, however I couldn’t resist myself from pissing up whoever is going to read this and waste his/her time by talking about my society.

I) A typical Egyptian family: usually There's a father and a mother bringing their children up on blind rules and orders, don't you dare even thinking to question about the origins of the rule or the habit or the tradition or the shit. Eventually and most importantly u'll turn out to be a copy of them, and undoubtedly you'll symbolize goodness on earth as you are doing what your parents ask you to do. And the victimized kids will become pitiful damn cowards following one life pattern which is the same like their parents or slightly different, not able to make their own stupid decisions till their 40s, awfully thinking the same and transferring these to their own kids.

Observe any Egyptian family during a family gathering or in clubs, restaurants or wherever I bet you will hear them talking about the same things using the same vocabularies. it's incredibly scary!

Just why can't you let us follow our own God-created nature?

II) religion, religion, religion!

Everyone here is appointed to determine who’s going to hell and who’s going to heaven, they are creative to the extent that they make up new hadiths, researches, and create new branches for religion. Their talks go around one thing: putting a piece of cloth on women’s heads so as not to corrupt society and turn the guys on. Just a piece of cloth will solve the problems of the entire world and will get you to heaven no matter what, so you can kill. Lie, cheat and do whatever you want but please don’t forget the piece of cloth. And please keep spreading the word, let them all speak about how women are the cause of problems because they go in streets uncovering their hair and let the idiots who are planning to run for presidency mention the piece of cloth in their plans. And creatively make advertisements to support your cause, let women be lollipops and men be flies, and who wants to be approached by a stupid fly?

We are asked to do religious rituals without knowing why, and some work on raising awareness about how other religions are worse than ours, just like a soccer match. And there is an argument that says once you’re out your country you’ll become more irreligious, as if I pray and fast for society, family and stupid people. 

III) Sickening hypocrisy all around, you’ll find politicians speaking of change and working on ruining your life at the same time. people gossiping about how others dress, talk, walk n fuck. Boys acting like angels on earth and behind girls’ backs they call them sluts. Professors and teachers trying to tell us that their job is teaching us. Bosses at work pretending to work for the general benefit and relatives faking your stupidity.

IV) awful taste of music and yea its vital. When 1000 cars and motorbikes pass beside you daily turning on some shit for tamer hosny or whoever, and the lyrics go around either how seductive his girl is or how slut she is, this is probably going to ruin your whole month! and movies tackling the same critical social issue which is the life of a belly-dancer and producers  making hell of money out of that.

V) a stupid SCAF is running the country after being ruled by a stupid ass. How does it feel like when you don’t have one single representative in the parliament for your own needs, yea we used to have some asses in the parliament and their main job was screwing us daily but we no longer have any asses. what does it feel like when voting in your country works against you and it's better to stay at home and not to vote? what does it feel like when you find that there are hundreds of political parties and no sole party has a clear agenda for a layman to understand? and what does it feel like to see that the only attractive tool to be used when it comes to elections is a beard? you can gain millions of votes by growing a beard and having some chickens. 

Rise above

When the ones who run the fire house
Are the ones who start the fire

When the lawless make the laws
And every preacher is a liar

When the ones that damn the innocent
Well they own the nightly news
And front page

Old man said to me
It’s not who but what you know
And knowledge isn’t wisdom

Without control

Better still to be the changes
That you want to see
But they come slow
I know

And you said rise above
Open your eyes up
And you said rise above
I can’t

I can’t

And every heart that bleeds
Will colour your world red
And the sorrow in the night
Will be the gloom you cannot shed

But your strength will be your vision
Be your visibility
And the gift you have before you

Will give you new eyes to see

That you can rise above
Swing through the skies above
And you shall rise above
Yourself

Know that I’ll be watching
Know that I’ll be waiting

You stand here on the precipice

I can’t soar away from you

And you can rise above
Feel your soul
Open your eyes up
Rise above yourself and take control
And you can rise above
Feel the love
Yourself

Release yourself and rise above it all
And you can rise above
I have been
Open your eyes up
And you are never alone
And you can rise above
Outside your dreams
Yourself
I’ll be watching and waiting for you

And every heart that bleeds
Will colour your world red
And the sorrow in the night
Will be the blue you cannot shed

And your strength will be a vision
Be your visibility
And the gift you have before you
Will give you new eyes to see

Riots in the city of dreadful nights

Violence and looting actions have swept across London for eight consecutive days after the shot of Mark Duggan “a black young man” by the police. It all started by peaceful marches in Tottenham by his relatives and neighbors to the police office. Some say that the death of Duggan was a triggering factor; others see that the riots have nothing to do with his death and it all goes around the poor suffering black people who are taking advantage of the situation. So they are black people now causing riots and troubles, because they are always blamed for everything wrong in the country and they are discriminated out of no reason so they decided to have vengeance now. That’s typical racist thinking! What is happening in London is not caused by black or Asian people, there are blacks and whites out in the streets protesting in a violent way against the police humiliation and Cameron’s stupidity, but this is what the media doesn’t want to show. They are focusing on the criminals or thugs (like they were being called in Egypt) who are burning their country and no blame for the angelic government! What’s happening now is out of not being listened, is out of the deep-rooted racism and discrimination against blacks who are not receiving good education or jobs and get stopped and searched in the streets for no reason, and is out of not admitting that there is even a problem. I’m indeed against these looting actions, but the protests started peacefully and then turned out that way. What I’m sure of is that, it’s not the first time for a black to be shot by a policeman, but it’s the first time to see marches protesting against the action. Yea, revolution is in the air!

the photo is uploaded from boston.com

Moments of cloudiness

I don’t know why I am writing this; actually I’m ultimately pissed off right now and feel like in deep need of expressing the shit out of me.

I can proudly n happily say that on a day to day basis i get pissed off, because this is what life brings on, however i get used to it n enjoy now being pissed off.

Let me tell you about some of the everyday-situations that turn me off, for instance one of them is meeting some professional psychic judges who are experts at judging people from the very first sight. Just from the moment you say hello, they'll immediately know about your complete curriculum vitae, make a multidimensional analysis of your personality, your IQ, and even read your stupid mind. And afterwards, expect a treatment based on that precious analysis which I don’t know from where they actually got it. And of course you have to accept that, because no matter how many ages you spend trying to change that impression, you will not. So yea deal with it, accept the totally different person they assumed you are and accept the way they treat you. Ah I forgot and you must change the way you perceive yourself because duh, they know you better of course.

These super abnormal genius people come from different backgrounds. You may meet a religious one, a paranoid one, a psychiatrist, a freak etc.

A psychiatrist will create a psychological profile for you, they know your weaknesses, your strengths, what you like what you don’t and don't ask me how. but hell if they believe in mind control, they will try to change your mind using very wicked methods (sarcasm). Regardless of how funny they are, still it pisses me off because they insult my intelligence indirectly while I actually prefer being insulted directly, add to this that they can make you shoot yourself.

The paranoid considers you too suspicious, or trying to hide sth, the freak assumes you are a freak as well. so yea live with that.

The religious assumes you are going to hell no matter what. i'm unveiled living in a hypocrite society, and people judge you according to your appearance. however, i very respect those who wear the veil and those who don't, so is it that hard for others to do the same? and why should i be stereotyped as irreligious and wrong? and why should a veiled girl wearing simple loose clothes be stereotyped as extremist? why can't we accept the "being different" notion and live with it instead of accepting to live with shit?
And yea i can't do anything about it, i never confront whoever judges me, but instead i draw this smile and stay away from them as much as possible. you know why I do that? because their unconscious minds and emotions judged me first, so i may find it very hard to use the so called logic to convince them. Yet, i don't know.

Feminism or Femininity?

If you believe that both can’t survive on the same planet, then do me a favor and go kill yourself :) 

How scary does “feminism” sound to you?  For me, whenever I hear “Are u a fe..minist?” it sounds exactly the same like Are u a dinosaur? A serial killer? A leader of the Illuminati? 

Feminism is not a new ideology, while the stereotypes about feminism in the Middle beautiful East are new but not very.


mmm what do feminists want? nothing, just equality!
This means that you want to be a whore n hang out at nights, smoke pot n do whatever you want!
Seriously? that what men do? ok, i want superiority then.
It’s whenever people talk about women and men equality, we hear the same nonsense. Especially when you mention the so called "freedom", you're dead! As it's the source of thrill for all men (stupid ones, as i love not to generalize).

Ok, how to get rid of the devilish effects of feminism?

1. Media: the majority of your population are slaves to the TVs, spread your anti-women anti-equality ideas through shows, plays, movies, songs...etc using some puppets.
(with all respect to the play)

2. Religion: Some people decided to call themselves religious, and out of their generosity, they decided to enlighten us with some new invented religious rules. But bear in mind that if we don’t obey them we are cut into pieces, burnt in "earth hell" and turned into ashes.

3. Family and Culture: The most effective of all. Some environments are actually designed to oppress women, n this will make you hate yourself and despise women. Such environments were not to oppress women only; but they oppress men too and create intertwined barriers in their minds with some planted stupid ideas.